It all started late summer 2019
I uploaded a picture of myself on my personal Instagram account and chatted about the 8 month gray hair transition I had been undergoing. That pic sort of went as they say, viral. Who knew so many people were so interested in women going gray? I didn’t.
Within a few short weeks my personal account with a few hundred followers exploded to thousands—and is now just over a year later, a Creator account with over 27k.
Below I share my early trepidation’s about my unintentional journey.
You know what one of my biggest fears is?
I can tell you it’s not wrinkles, gray hair, or even an ass that keeps dropping every seven years or so, despite my best effort to keep it from happening.
What I fear the most is being vulnerable in any way. Including putting myself out in the world to be judged, evaluated, potentially criticized. I struggle with this not just on a personal level, but professional as well. It’s something I’ve always had to put a great amount of effort into managing. This fear I know, is certainly not unique to me. I think to be human means we’re navigating the world trying to have as few vulnerabilities as possible.
You must be wondering like I am…
Then why the hell are you putting yourself in one of the most defenseless positions you possibly can by sharing pictures, stories, and intimate feelings on social media in such a public way? You’re a sadist? Perhaps.
I think more likely it falls somewhere in between being a highly inspiring and an altogether cathartic process. But when I get the full answer I’ll fill you in.
In the meantime, I’m going to keep doing it because it seems to be mostly genuinely inspiring a whole bunch of people, myself included and I’m entirely ok with that.
Thanks to everyone who’s been so generous with their kind words and encouragement. You’re unequivocally awesome!
